[[ -` ThePain...

knowing this' me...

Me is LiPiNg
a.k.a L3v!n@; Levi
nickname: yao guai, wu gude, ba zhang, lemon head, ribena, ice cream, Levis...
15+
6B-bians '03 of FuHu4 pR!m4rY SkooL
[dǚ Yı ŵǖ Иєяď] '04 & '05
3 & 4Oners '06 & 07
of ComMoNw3aL7h S3cOnd4rY sKooL
B4dm!n7oN gUrL @ css
C4nCer
29th JuN3 1991
dolphinndogsrulzes_lp@hotmail.com


SIGNIFICANT DATES BAHX...
31/10/05 ( joined )
31/07/06 ( left )
11/10/06 ( crab gang --> wendy n amanda )
26/10/06; 01:34 hrs ( bestfriend --> kelvin )
12/11/06 ( wang badan, si misai n wu gude ) xD

FOR MEMORY'S SAKE...
1A, 2F, 3A, 4C, 5B, 6B
1-1, 2-1, 3-1, on-going to 4-1 e coming yr

[[ -` TheJoy...

knowing they are there...

Th3 p33ps Wh0 r4wKs mY w0rLd...

5B '02 & 6B '03...
s3s4me clique... (my beloved fred aka cockroach, piggy, bao bei & cat)
[dǚ Yı ŵǖ Иєяď] '04 & '05...
Fuhua & CSS 'Ch3rs...
f4n-7aSt!c gang /06
brokers' club ( karying, weiyu n me...)
crab gang ( wendy n amanda )
bestfriend -> kelvin
the 4somes... ( siqi, keng hwee, karying )
dimsum family xD si misai n wang badan =))
my dad n mum of course...^^


W!sHiNg Up0n tH3 st4rS...

improving badminton and running skills...
my pillar of strength to not fail...
learn kayaking...
blade more proficiently...
complete learning to swim...
surfing...
diving...
dancing...
karate...
friendships to last...
for ppl to be trueful to one another...
escape from reality...

[[-` e Crash Into Reality

-Friday, April 21, 2006

Haix... i shouldn't have even gone for the group study larx... or maybe it can be counted as i din go bahx... what for 自讨苦吃... rushing through Chem stuiffs... crapping to Latimar that i din bring the work when in fact i din do... somemore walked in the rain and wasted my money on taxi to reach earlier... why did i do that for?? i could have just gone back home & sleep la...it's pointless... useless... doing all these for what?? for someone... arg... forget it... wateva for...

Oh well... in the first place, she knew i'm like crying... but she left just like that... okay... it's alright... i never expect anyone to care anyway...

Worse... went tofind her at ILI class... w/o any food & was dead hungry can... but aftre that she din even pei me go eat sth decent other than sweets... Thanks Wayne for accompanying me...=)

She left saying to be back at 6 or 6+... but she never did...sms her le... so long than reply...either she expect me to be sitting there waiting for nth bt her sms to stand balancing my books on my head and smslo...

Went walking from lvl 1 to 4 in search for her w/o any clue where she was... + carrying my mountain of books... aching le leh...

Met them le... might as well don't... didn't go there for somebody else de la... i'm like existing as a non-existant... please la... she shouldn't have even ask me to go la... haix... maybe it's my fault la... if i had chose not to go... things would have been better... what for... getting myself affected... upsetted... agitated... for i'm too emotional le... they all said so...

Why must i be so troublesome la...creating problems for myself by caring when i said i will never ever again... why can't i stop being a irritating fool and burry myself in my homework and books... why am i i such a busybody... so meddlesome... care about others when my world's turning upside down...

i'm like screwing up everything in my world, losing lots of stuff that were once dear to me... yet care about others...oh please la... get a life man...

Why can't i just be a little moe heartless?? why can't i just void myself of all emotions?? why can't i just isolate myself from this world??why can't i just be dead... like i should have if there wasn't a communication error... i should have been dead... anyway... whether i'm alive or not... the earth still rotates... and ppl still live on... who would care??

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why is it that no matter how hard i try, i can never be the best... i'm always second to others... no matter how hard i try... no one can ever see how hard i'm trying... no one understands how i feel even though they say they do... why am i always a failure... in everything i do...why? i've been trying le.. why do things still turn out this way?? why am i screwing things up... everything single thing... why are all my lovelies taken away bit by bit from me?? i'm lost... i don't know where my heart is ... i feel dead... i'm tired of the nights of crying myself to sleep... i don't see the meaning of life anymore... i hate reality... i guess i agree with yan... "death's beautiful..."


` If you can't bring my hope... bring me death instead...~

'Are there any hope;
of escaping from this reality
; confusion... lost...'