[[ -` ThePain...

knowing this' me...

Me is LiPiNg
a.k.a L3v!n@; Levi
nickname: yao guai, wu gude, ba zhang, lemon head, ribena, ice cream, Levis...
15+
6B-bians '03 of FuHu4 pR!m4rY SkooL
[dǚ Yı ŵǖ Иєяď] '04 & '05
3 & 4Oners '06 & 07
of ComMoNw3aL7h S3cOnd4rY sKooL
B4dm!n7oN gUrL @ css
C4nCer
29th JuN3 1991
dolphinndogsrulzes_lp@hotmail.com


SIGNIFICANT DATES BAHX...
31/10/05 ( joined )
31/07/06 ( left )
11/10/06 ( crab gang --> wendy n amanda )
26/10/06; 01:34 hrs ( bestfriend --> kelvin )
12/11/06 ( wang badan, si misai n wu gude ) xD

FOR MEMORY'S SAKE...
1A, 2F, 3A, 4C, 5B, 6B
1-1, 2-1, 3-1, on-going to 4-1 e coming yr

[[ -` TheJoy...

knowing they are there...

Th3 p33ps Wh0 r4wKs mY w0rLd...

5B '02 & 6B '03...
s3s4me clique... (my beloved fred aka cockroach, piggy, bao bei & cat)
[dǚ Yı ŵǖ Иєяď] '04 & '05...
Fuhua & CSS 'Ch3rs...
f4n-7aSt!c gang /06
brokers' club ( karying, weiyu n me...)
crab gang ( wendy n amanda )
bestfriend -> kelvin
the 4somes... ( siqi, keng hwee, karying )
dimsum family xD si misai n wang badan =))
my dad n mum of course...^^


W!sHiNg Up0n tH3 st4rS...

improving badminton and running skills...
my pillar of strength to not fail...
learn kayaking...
blade more proficiently...
complete learning to swim...
surfing...
diving...
dancing...
karate...
friendships to last...
for ppl to be trueful to one another...
escape from reality...

[[-` e Crash Into Reality

-Saturday, April 22, 2006

hmm... once again.. realise no matter how hard i try... i'll always be the second best...no matter how hard i try... it's just never enough... i'll just never be a good friends... no matter what... i've tried really.. but still... i'm time and agin being 否定... haix... i'll never be a good MACer... a good student... at least not anymore... a good sister... a good daughter... a good Badminton Player...

ppl said i've changed... i know it too... i felt it... but why?? for the better or worse? i don;t know it myself anymore... i don't seem to know anything anymore... this is really painful to carry on & i'm not strong enough... i guess... i'm not strong at all... at time i may seem not to care... but acutally i do.... i realised... haix... maybe i'm too emotional... maybe... but that's me..

i hate this me... i hate it... i hate this torture... God... could you just release me from this pain...?? i hate having to drag myself... havng to force myself...just for the sake of doing so... even if i do something for someone... no one cares... i drag myself to recess when i could have use that time to sleep... what for... ending up having a headache... what for..

haix... i'm foolish... i realised... for having wild thoughts... thinking that... if i just try hear... one day... i'll be appreciated.. one day... things will be perfect... be wonderful... how dumb... things will never be perfect... at least not for me... for i'm destined to be a failure... destined to screw up everything in the end...

_____________ hopeless...

'Are there any hope;
of escaping from this reality
; confusion... lost...'